For selfish reasons, I have not gone into your blog or Huibin's blog to read for a long, long while; for I was afraid of opening up a wound in my heart that I’ve tried so hard to heal. But for some untold reasons, I’ve decided to take a look at her blog just a few moments ago; a good hard look. And I am really glad that I’ve done so for good reasons.
My eyes are now swelled with tears as I read through her entries about you. My feelings are mixed… really mixed now...
I can feel her immense grief when she writes about your untimely departure. I can feel the void now in her when she misses you, every now and then. I can feel her helplessness when she laments the inevitability of your passing. It breaks my heart.
I can also feel the joy in her when she reminisces the good old times… back then when both of were enjoying simple things in life together.. shopping, chit-chatting, doing manicures, perdicures, massages, having coffee, sharing secrets, books etc. I can feel the simple, pure, unconditional love your dear younger sister has for you. It warms and heals my heart more, more so than it has broken it.
Dear, you know her best… befitting the strong, unbreakable bond existing between you and her… She misses you as much as you miss her.
In a narrow sense, though both of you are not able to continue to enjoy those simple pleasures in life, physically together… but deep down inside you and Huibin, there is always this lil’ cosy corner where both of you can seek solace in when any of you needs someone to talk to; this lil' warm corner where both of you can still heartily laugh together, celebrating the simple joys in life; this lil' private corner where both of you can share secrets....
P.S. I m now using your MacBook and you've listed this lovely photo of you and Huibin as one of your favourite photos in iPhoto:
Thank you for the post, my dear brother-in-law. I am very touched...
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